Feelin' Guilty!!

I love my little Blake so much but somedays I feel so overwhelmed! I think the majority of the problem is that I also babysit up to 4 other kids!!!! I am starting to feel guilty about having other kids around. I know it is not hurting Blake to have to learn to share ALL of his toys and to treat others with respect, but somedays  breaking up two year olds fights all day long just is more than I can handle!! I have babysat one of my best friends little boys (who is five months older than Blake) since she had to go back to work when he was seven months old, and he is now 2 1/2 years old. So in other words, he and Blake are pretty much like brothers! They have days when they play really well together all day long then days like this week has been when they think that fighting is the way of life! My Blake is kind of a loner when it comes to playing. He is just like John, likes to have some "me" time!!  Well this morning I couldn't break up anymore fights, I WAS DONE!!! My wonderful momma doesn't work on Tuesdays and Thursdays so I picked up my phone and begged my mom to take Blake and let him have a whole day to himself. Of course she agreed because who can resist his sweet little smile?? Now, I am sitting in my house with my other "son"..lol... and feeling sooooo guilty that I sent my little Blakey away!!! I feel like a failure when I just can't do it anymore!! I feel guilty that my son is the one that got sent away for the day :( I feel guilty that when he is home he has to share his mommy all day long!! I feel guilty that I have no patience lately!! I know it is a normal mom thing to feel guilty about the smallest things! Grr!! I am not going to know what to do when I have this baby in June and get to stay home with just my kiddos for a whole six weeks!!!! Wow that was a hole bunch of babbling!!!